I haven’t been this nervous in a long, long time. You’d think moving to Jamaica or traveling alone in India would have caused me to feel anxious. Yes, to a certain extent. But not like this.
This is big. I want to remember how I am feeling tonight. Mark the moment somehow.
Tomorrow is my first day as doctoral student. There’s a lot to prove. I hope I can live up to it all.
I’m going to plan my ‘first day’ outfit, pack my bag and make my lunch. Like I used to do as a young girl. I think it will calm me down. I also found this and it made me feel a little bit better:
I’m gonna be that girl. That kind of woman. The one who goes for it. Fights for her dreams. Despite the many rejections (there were 4 schools that turned me down), fears and straight through the tears and pain.
Don’t panic. It’s go time.