“She could never go back and make some of the details pretty. All she could do was move forward and make the whole thing beautiful.” ~Terry St. Cloud
There is nothing like testing your strength and resilience by facing the past head-on.
I just spent the remaining days of my “gentle summer” in Kelowna, British Columbia to actively soak up what’s left of my freedom and relax with friends. Every moment in Kelowna was an invitation to go deeper inside my heart. Why? Kelowna is the spot I used to spend a lot of time holidaying with my ex-partner. Not going back would have meant missing an opportunity to gain valuable access and insight into my healing and growth.
Did I want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future?
I chose a pioneer of the future. (No surprise there.) I chose a new path to walk on. One with a new view and new experiences. I also wanted Kelowna back. I can safely say that I am no longer a prisoner of what once haunted me there.
I observed myself taking in the terrain. Was it hard? Heck, yah. Did I have moments of sadness? Of course. Did I want to reach out? Most certainly. But I didn’t. I allowed the heavy discomfort of our memories to sink in and stood by in my sacred space. What were they telling me? What would I do next?
Well, I released and my heart was at peace. I did not become irritated by every rub I felt. And I let love in. Love really is the most powerful healing force in the universe.
I allowed others and the beauty of the space carry me through and show me endless love. Show me kindness. Show me thoughtfulness. Show me gentleness. Show me strength to break old patterns. And show me a darn good time regardless of what has happened there before.
I feel accomplished. Like a fighter who won the battle. “I went from zero to my own hero” – hear me Roar. (Thank you Katy Perry.)
Now for some pictures of this beautiful place and me thriving in it.