The other day a friend’s partner asked me, “So, are you going to India all by your lonesome?” I, without missing a beat, retorted, “Yes, I’m going all on my ownsome.” Lonesome implies I’m lonely. Which I am not. Ownsome (a word I’ve just made-up) means I’m choosing to go alone. Which I am.
There are two very different lens to look at this upcoming trip through. One insinuates I’ve fallen victim to my circumstances, the other that I am empowered by my choice. Sure, it would have been great to experience India with another person. However, I am choosing to go now while I have this incredible freedom. It’s my summer, agenda and timeframe. And so off I go!
On that note, I leave tomorrow. When I really allow it to sink in that I’m doing this (truly stop what I’m doing and just breathe), I start to get overwhelmed with gratitude and emotion. I’ve wanted to go back ‘home’ to India for many years. Dreams can come true if you want them to bad enough. I know I’ve changed a lot in the 12 years that India and I have been separated. I’m sure it has to. The next time you’ll hear from me will be from there.
I have been thinking a lot about the intentions I am setting for this trip. In a nutshell, they are:
1. To always act from love and be on the look-out for witnessing moments of love.
2. To truly let go of what is no longer serving me, including residual feelings of resentment and grief.
3. To be completely in the moment and absorb the super-charge energy that is vibrating from India at all times.
The adventure will also include 2 layovers in London (I lived there for 4 years and haven’t been back since I left in 2008) and a cross-Canada tour once I arrive back to North America. I will be making stops in Toronto, Ottawa and finally Vancouver.
I’ve come across a series of motivational quotes and images that belong on the blog before I go. They definitely speak to my current state of mind.
In the meantime, I have thoroughly enjoyed being in Calgary this past month. It’s been wonderful to reconnect with good friends, hike, sing, meet new babies and see my family frequently. Here are some highlights worth sharing.